Wednesday, October 24, 2007

DEEPEST FEAR LIES IN....

Our deepest fear are not we are inadequate,our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure,it is our light not our darkness that more frightens us.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world there is nothing in lightning about shrinking that other people will feel insecure around you.
We were all meant to shine as children's do this is not in just some of us it's in everyone..
When we let our own light shine we consciously give permission and let other people to do the same as we liberate from our own fear our presence automatically liberates other...
This is for you my homies..
ASH..

Monday, September 17, 2007

SHE CAME LIKE AN ANGEL TODAY..

There is no such day in anyones life as an unimportant day but to me today is an extra special day because she came to me like an angel from the heaven abode ...hmmm only a desert rose knows the value of a rain,only a blind man knows how valuable is a sight,only an orphan knows how valuable are parents....and only i know how i miss her and how much i treasure her like no one else ..i seem to have loved her in numberless forms numberless times in life in age after age forever..The moment i saw her my feet was one feet above the ground i could feel the calories burning inside it was so beautiful i was comfortably numb my words are not enough to express my feelings..The very moment i saw her smile i realized my life was so complete and worthy..i wish i could be a fish and keep my eyes wide open and keep looking at her because every moment i wink my eyes,i regret i have skipped every fraction of seconds..I could hear the best music in her voice,i could get the best fragrance in her presence close to my heart..sweetheart i desire nothing more than to be in your heart until forever dies..you are my ANGEL..

Lots of love and respect for you...

Saturday, September 15, 2007

A BLESSING IN DISGUISE..

How should i start my story hmmm??It was a cold evening though its not chilling cold after all its a winter in Chennai so.. i still remember it was 2005 in the month of december me and my best friend PD we were getting ready to go to Chennai Egmore railway station to receive one of my teachers back at home who use to teach me maths in my tuition classes a very dynamic and noble is my teacher Sir.Rajendro ..He was on his way to Chennai for a treatment for his sweet n intelligent little daughter Echan, as per schedule the train was suppose to arrive by 10:15pm we were there on the platform 30 mins prior, we never wanted my teacher to wait fr us so we made it a point that we should be there well ahead of the scheduled time and we did..
It was a busy station trains coming from all over india,different faces,different colors and its always a different feeling to be on a railway station looking for faces you know and the best part is when you meet someone you know;ok let me come to the point now.
we heard the announcement and it says the train was delayed by 2hours due to weather condition,probably because of fog its winter and thats very common.And i stay at tambaram its a little away from the station say about 1 hour by local train and the last local train is at 12:00am if the train is delayed by 2 hours we may miss the local train in a nick of time any way thats not a big issue we can catch a call taxi or rent a cab there is nothing to worry about..yeah winter is always cold so we had a cup of brewed coffee and that was a lovely coffee specially in a weather like that..When ever i'm with PD we talk a lot of things useful,politics,our future,latest trends,vogue,bikes,cars,movies etc say everything under the sun n craps sometimes and that was a good time we were comfortably sitting on the platform chair and talking, i really don't remember what was the topic but it was interesting and i never knew two hours went in a jiffy.
we went to the platform display once again and checked the train status and we had a bad news yes the train is delayed by another two hours dame..it was really bad but we didn't have a choice we have to wait so back to pavilion we were talking about the indian railway n don't ask me how is indian railway and how was the talk..we waited slowly the platform became quite i could easily make a head count well thats because its a sub station from the chennai central and no train will be arriving at this odd hour so yes egmore station went to sleep and i could see a very few of us waiting for the same train some of them made a bed and slept on the empty benches happily n i could see a man with a long hair he looks like a manipuri and i was not in a mood to go and start a talk with him we were really pissed off...It was colder than i expected now and the mosquitoes were having a grand feast all of them in hundreds i couldn't sleep for a wink on top of that the bench was really hard and not spacious i really miss my bed oh really.It didn't work out so we got up again and started patrolling on the platform it was really boring say it was bleeding boring..on top of that the mosquitoes i would suggest Laloo Prasad to fumigate the whole railway station twice in a week..it was 2 am in the morning and we got the announcement that the train was delayed by 4 hours which means it will be arriving at 6 am in the morning...phew we were fused after hearing the announcement. We can't go back home at that part of the day the local railway station was closed and if we go home by a call taxi by the time we reach home we should be getting ready again to come back to the station so the best thing was wait till morning and say hello to the mosquitoes once again..both of us tried to get some sleep but it was not happening so we talked the whole night...
Finally it was 5:30am in the morning we could see a new day getting started news-hawkers, sweepers, tea stalls, early birds singing happily but both of us were still drowsy it was a long night..we had some tea n we were standing on the platform PD didn't say a word so do I we were just quite in fact there was nothing left to talk about we were already squeezed like a lemon to a zero level dame!! we had a tough time in the cold night and the parasites gosh..
When we were standing numb a gentle man from behind came up to me and politely asked are guys from manipur and i sprang up n said yes sir we are from manipur i continued, is there anything i can help you sir..his name was Nabakishore an engineer in ericsson india he was waiting for his little brother who was coming on the same train my teacher was on. He looked really learn t and he was well polished though he was in his casuals and he is from silchar yet a manipuri by birth,he knew about my place Moirang and the best part was he was an alumnus of Moirang college way back..It was a nice meeting we told him about ourselves ah! by that time we were in third year say pre final year of our engineering and he was a specialist in GSM technology bingo! my favorite subject we stood on the platform and he was talking about the latest technology s in GSM about 3G mobiles and stuff it was really a good morning and a pleasant meeting we got his contact number n the train arrived and he promised he will be helping in my implant training and my final year project than i realize the wait was worthy..
Now it was 6am and the train arrived,all the shit we have gone through just vanished away when i saw the face of my teacher it has been years i saw him..he was happy to see me i didnt tell much about the sleeping part n the parasites but i said sir we waited you for long welcome to chennai..
Then all of a sudden that long hair guy popped up from no where and was talking to my teacher and there i came to know he was also waiting for my teacher dame it why didn't i go and talk to him last night.. well i was in a mixed mood though i didnt let it out infront of my teacher so i politely asked sir are u coming with us or with him?Sir kept his hands on my shoulders and told me i tried to call you on the way but i couldnt get any telephone booth i'm really sorry Ashok i think it would be better if i stay with him(long hair guy) since the hospital is near to his place..what would be your reaction at that point!!??? well i politely said its ok sir and thats a good idea..he said sorry to me once again but i didn't hear properly..we said bye to sir and caught a local train and we went back home we had a good sleep in that one hour inside the local train..
Now you guys must be thinking what is the blessing in this story well remember Mr.Nabakishore ,he is an angel to me he is my god father today,How??that you will find in my Next blog... i hope you all enjoyed my story but it truly depends on how u take it..

Thanks for reading


Friday, September 14, 2007

PAPA..

People call him doctor,sir,teacher,uncle he is known to everyone in many names Dr.PH AMU SINGH.. but to me he is my PAPA the word that has not been heard or uttered for many years ,yet his divine presence is growing stronger n stronger within me deep inside ..Though Your absence has gone through me like thread through a needle,everything I do is stitched with your color...I know you are always with me right beside me taking care of every beat of my heart..some times when i wake up early in the morning a dull ache throbs in my heart i feel i have lived the whole day even before it has begun for i know you are not going to be a part of it i wish you were here with us to share the coming years and watch us grow..ill nurture all your dreams and make you proud this is a promise to a father from a son..
I am so proud to be your son and till my last breath i will make you proud that i was born to be your son..your words your ideology your philosophy will remain forever in our hearts n pages..we miss you like a child misses his blanket..
My pages are dedicated to you and i am living to fulfill your golden dreams...all i need is your blessings, papa i fall unto your lotus feet bless me until forever dies..

We miss you..